Of flow, Of form, The force, Of fire, The elements can take you higher, Allow the ground to permeate your core, Breathe in the life, love deep, Some more. Light lit up, Switch turned on. Life exhalts a golden throne. The beast dissolves. Omnipresent. Opalescent. Sacral warm. Soar in, to tune higher.
They didnt treat her well so she became a better person. They didnt approve of her so she tried to prove herself. They blamed her, so she took on all responsibility. He didnt answer, so she could not let go. Thinking, dwelling, convinced she could not meet you, your needs, herself, anyone, anything. Was she flawed. Was she too closed, open, wounded – so she changed and changed and changed. Yet nothing changed. Other than the shattering of time.
For a while it made her too soft, too hard, everything and nothing at all. Not knowing what was wrong with her. Broken beyond perhaps. Cursed. Maybe she wasn’t loveable. Maybe she didn’t deserve love.
She couldn’t even weep any longer. Tears dried up. Like a sponge sitting on a shelf for all eternity. Yet no thing worked. She most definitely tried. It was like trying to wash with no water. Expecting to be clean.
It was never her pain, challenge or task to bear. Yet she couldn’t see. She held herself, body limp, no strength left to try. Something awakened her to the truth. A clear sign. She poured deeply into her very own cup and vowed never to abandon herself ever again.
A miracle she is, was and always had been. Strength pouring through her veins. That was when life changed. For she knew she was the one. This could never and would never ever be taken away. Even in death. Eternal light. Eternal love. Breath. Life.
If one eats a strawberry and decides this is a strawberry on first taste every strawberry thereafter could be comparible to the first. If one sees a strawberry as bad as it is not pristine, one may cast out strawberries forever or judge them thereafter, hereafter. If one rushes and gobbles a strawberry they may not actually truly experience the strawberry. If one eats a strawberry every single day would you compare it to the first, the last, the bruising, the beauty. Can you eat a strawberry every day as if it is your first time, allowing it to be all it is in each and every moment. Can you taste, touch, see, feel, hear, smell, connect with the strawberry allowing all of it and all of you to merge without a single judgement – good or bad. Could you meet the strawberry every single day as if it’s the first time and feel a deeper connection without trying. If God gave you the same strawberry every day of your life could you meet it in the Morning and offer it space, presence, connection, communication as if it was the first time. Can one meet each day, person, animal, experience, place with fresh eyes in each and every moment. Can you truly meet another. Can we truly meet ourselves.
I’d like to offer a message of hope. A message of hope to those that seem to live in a way where their work, truth, self, existance, needs, being is seemingly unnoticed. Maybe you feel unseen, unheard. Maybe you’ve stood back to allow. Moved forth to take action. Tried to co-create. Followed your truth. Changed patterns. Created new beliefs. Created new waves and ways. Still no great success, healthy partner, abundant cash flow etc… I’d like to offer a message of hope to let you know and please only take what resonates. That one person or selection of people that truly hear/heard your words are far more powerful than a million followers. Success is in the alignment to all you are. Success is the ability to live your truth. Success is living and breathing your true life which I believe is destiny and path. We were never meant to compete and compare. Each person’s life individual to them and their lessons. Maybe you imprisoned yourself in your creations at some point. The way out can be slow. If so true liberation awaits. You aren’t your creations nor the work you do. They aren’t the labels adorned either. We are the all. All of life. All of love. Fullness. Wholeness. Emptiness. Dark. Light. All inbetween. You are your validation. You are your success. You are the recognition. Look at what have achieved for yourself. Within yourself. Within your family. Ancestral lines. You may not see the ripple effect of that which you’ve brought to life just yet. One day you may. One day you may not. Know this though. All is connected. Working together apart – apart together. You were and are enough with the first beat and every beat of your heart. You are just as much enough when the last beat ends. Your first breath – life. Your last breath – a new life. No additions needed. For anyone. For everyone. For all. We are all. In breath. In living. In connection. In a vastness one could never mentally comprehend. You are enough. By the time you read that I hope your felt that within yourself already. With love, I hope this message finds you well.
Never have I ever felt so humbled in all my life. My ankle broke yesterday, always a greater reason, always. Two incredible people sat with me for two hours yesterday, called for an ambulance and waited with me in the pouring rain and mud, so appreciative and grateful for their kindness. An ambulance crew come into the woods to wheelchair me to the ambulance, so grateful for their determination. I feel so blessed for the health I have now. I feel so blessed at the mental strength I have attained, I never realised how strong it was till now. I feel so blessed to have supportive family and an NHS that are really caring and kind. I’m grateful that the hospital have respected my wishes to do everything thus far without any medication. I absolutely love the human spirit of people and there total utter beauty and depth beaming from their pouring hearts and souls. Truly blessed to be sharing this experience with so many others in their pain, joy and human experience. Life so fragile, love so strong. It’s really opening my mind, heart and compassion to that which I’ve not seen for a while. So many signs. Already I’m learning patience, how to accept help, releasing the need to do everything myself. It’s stopped me in my tracks to break me into flexibility and deeper presence. Closer to God, source, all. When I asked for a breakthrough or to be broken beautiful it wasn’t really this I expected but somehow I’m finding the greatest beauty, compassion, tears, joy in a painful situation. Grateful for life. God’s got a plan. Even in suffering you can somehow assist one another without trying too, connections and differences, truly hearing each other, holding space, prayer. God’s given me something I never expected, in a place I never thought it would be brought to life.