NOW YOU ARE SEEN.
Know this dear one;
They never saw you because they were focused on themselves, the situation, the war.
They didn’t leave you when they stormed out, they left the situation.
They didn’t reject you they rejected themselves.
They didn’t prefer the drunken nights, they prefered to block their pain, the reality, the truth.
They said they never argued yet you felt it, heard it was torn into two not knowing what to do.
They laughed at you because you hit their wounds, the truth, the reality they feared to touch.
It was never your fault.
It was never their intention to hurt you in fact they truly didn’t see.
They too felt these wounds as children.
An ancestral heirloom passed along and prized.
A battle of dualistic, conditional love and loss of self.
A bleed through of two people trying to become one, merging through the voids, bonded by pain.
There is no blame, just a constant loop of push – pull, mine – yours, right – wrong and a broken confused child that’s never seen or heard.
Thus repeating patterns as an adult, holding on to all that destroys them for fear that they’re bad, unhinged, unlovable, broken, not ever enough.
Holding onto shame, blame and guilt as you hurt your children too, you didn’t see for a time either but you did choose to see.
Now dear one, you are seen, heard and loved. By you, for you.
Hold yourself dear one.
Until the haunted cries, torn parts, dissonance and confusion, dissolve into peace.
Now you are seen and heard.
Now you are whole, you always were.
You’ve nothing to seek, find or prove.
Know this dear one, you were strong enough to be seen, to be heard and to feel.
You had the strength to be.
You are love itself and you are more than enough.